What inspires me? People. People who are genuinely happy with their own lives. Bailey inspires me tremendously...she's the happiest person I know! ha-ha!! A couple weeks ago, on facebook, someone posted something like"Your baby always looks like the happiest kid in the world" and that was the best compliment EVER! That's all I want. :) Bailey was like my push into a new life...She motivates me daily, just by smiling and laughing. Motherhood is so weird though...pregnancy and childbirth are even weirder! When I think about it, it seems so SciFi..like alien-ish. A little human grows inside another human until it's perfectly ready to survive in the crazy world...God is awesome. I don't know how atheists do it..like it seems pretty far fetched to believe we came from nothing. Everything fits too perfectly to be chance. When I took Anatomy and Physiology I, it seriously just reinforced my beliefs in God. Studying the human body down to the tiniest cell is crazy...everything has a purpose. A-M-A-Z-I-N-G!
Anyway, back to motherhood being weird. When I was pregnant, I knew I was going to love Bailey but I didn't understand it really, I still don't understand this overflowing love. It's loving someone so much it hurts...like love that makes you want to laugh, scream, cry, hug and kiss all at the same time. There's so much I want to teach her:
-I don't even want her to have a racist pinky! I want her to know that God created us all equally and skin color is just another one of those tiny differences between each person, like eye or hair color. I want her to love everyone the way Jesus loves us.
-I want her to have good manners. Too often I meet people who just have no manners...or I've had friends/people over who don't say PLEASE or THANK YOU or MA'AM to my mom or grandma. It's crazy..I guess some people my age or younger don't think it's important but I was raised to have good manners and I think people appreciate it. It really does show respect. That's another thing, I want Bailey to be respectful of everyone..not just grown ups, but everyone. We all deserve respect!
-I want her to love her body and be healthy. This is kind of one of those lead by example things, but I just want her to realize how important it is to take care of yourself.
What else.. I want her to be a hard worker, a lover not a fighter, dedicated, and strong-willed. I want her to love God with all her heart and share that love with people around her. I want her to always keep her future in mind but ALWAYS live for the day. Most of all, I want her to know how loved she is. She's an amazing child and I know to make all this happen it's going to take prayer and a lot of work on my part to be a great example for her. I will always be here for her, I want her to know that too.
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