My VERY FIRST blog EVER, inspired by Kandee J. :) Hoping this will be somewhat therapeutic and something I can do while waiting to get tired! Lately, I've had the hardest time sleeping..probably because it's my only quiet time and my body's making me cherish it! At least that's what I'm telling myself...
Sadly, that's about everything I have to do tomorrow... I SAY sadly, but I'm actually so, so happy to have nothing to do but spend the entire day with my precious little one! It's a blessing and while I do get bored and l-l-l-lonely :( ultimately, I wouldn't want it any other way. Just takin' it slow and trying to be as positive and patient as possible!! SIGH, speaking of patience..I'm waiting for PANDORA to play my Etta James station, it just told me "It's taking us longer to find the perfect song to play, if you don't want to wait switch to another channel." Thanks Pandora :) But I really want to hear you, Etta so I'll wait! I'm always in a Etta James or Billie Holiday mood at night, I think because it makes me have sweet dreams. I rarely remember my dreams, but I assume they're sweet---why not? ha!
So, what else...
For a few months I was really bummed...I think I said "I want a boyfriend!!" at least twice a day every day, but I recently came to this realization that I'd rather be single than pick yet another loser. I'm only 20 years old for pete's sake! I just have to keep telling myself how old I am because being a young mom, you really do start to feel older than you are. I don't do anything "fun"...I love my life and I have fun but other people my age would think I'm suuuper boring I bet. But I've made a conscience decision to be positive and not let myself go there and be bummed out because it's waste of emotion and energy. I just pray God will send me someone special, and to whoever you are future husband: I already love you and pray for you and can't wait to meet you because I know you're somewhere on this crazy planet :) I will behave myself and grow and be the best me I can be until I meet you and then we can grow and be the best us together.
night night
and remember:
"...you must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, and all your strength."
Deuteronomy 6:5
Tomorrow's to do list:
*go to escuela and try to figure out how/if
I'm going to get this show on the road by Saturday
*make a copy of house key
*screw on baby safety latches for the cabinets
*go to escuela and try to figure out how/if
I'm going to get this show on the road by Saturday
*make a copy of house key
*screw on baby safety latches for the cabinets
Sadly, that's about everything I have to do tomorrow... I SAY sadly, but I'm actually so, so happy to have nothing to do but spend the entire day with my precious little one! It's a blessing and while I do get bored and l-l-l-lonely :( ultimately, I wouldn't want it any other way. Just takin' it slow and trying to be as positive and patient as possible!! SIGH, speaking of patience..I'm waiting for PANDORA to play my Etta James station, it just told me "It's taking us longer to find the perfect song to play, if you don't want to wait switch to another channel." Thanks Pandora :) But I really want to hear you, Etta so I'll wait! I'm always in a Etta James or Billie Holiday mood at night, I think because it makes me have sweet dreams. I rarely remember my dreams, but I assume they're sweet---why not? ha!
So, what else...
For a few months I was really bummed...I think I said "I want a boyfriend!!" at least twice a day every day, but I recently came to this realization that I'd rather be single than pick yet another loser. I'm only 20 years old for pete's sake! I just have to keep telling myself how old I am because being a young mom, you really do start to feel older than you are. I don't do anything "fun"...I love my life and I have fun but other people my age would think I'm suuuper boring I bet. But I've made a conscience decision to be positive and not let myself go there and be bummed out because it's waste of emotion and energy. I just pray God will send me someone special, and to whoever you are future husband: I already love you and pray for you and can't wait to meet you because I know you're somewhere on this crazy planet :) I will behave myself and grow and be the best me I can be until I meet you and then we can grow and be the best us together.
night night
and remember:
"...you must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, and all your strength."
Deuteronomy 6:5
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